Why?

Why is it I can never find the men who are actually present and want me attractive? Why? Why do I always pine for people who don't return phone calls or emails or my affection? Is it that much to ask? Am I that unloveable or unappealing? Obviously not because these other perfectly nice and attractive men seem to think I am great? Why not the one I atually want?

I hate boys!

I hate waiting

In line, for emails, for anything really. I wish my computer would be fixed, but I am not sure if it would be smarter and/or cheaper to send it to HP to fix and send back or take it to Circuit City (or other computer fixing place) here and have them do it. Also contemplating just buying a new fucking laptop--although absolutely have no money to do that, don't really have the cash to fix it. Whatever. I hate waiting.

God hates my computer

Well, it is my fault really. I killed it, but then it won't let me quickrestore it to factory settings. I am going to call the help line to see if they can help me, but anyone who has ideas (the first disk went fine and then the second disk was spit out midway through saying error 48!) can please, please call me and give me advice. If you don't know my number call Chrissy or someone who does--or email me at my same old same old account, or bitch barn types can post help there. I hate computers!